Just how the title states, what to say first... Hmmm, well I'll start off by saying HELLO!!!! Ok I'm a dork but anyone who knows me already knows that :D I've recently decided that I need an actual blog to write in and vent and what not... Not that the one on MYSPACE isn't a bad place but no one goes on my MS page anymore and I wanted a REAL blog place to do my, well blogging.
As some of you may know, I'm what I call an unusual person... I am me and that's all I'm gonna be. There are things that people know about me and things no one knows about me. I have depression issues. Not the skinniest girl one the block (or the state lol, jk). I stutter. I think about hurting myself from time to time but end up either screaming, punching a few walls or just go silent. I work everyday to center myself and try to lead what I try and call a "normal" life..... Oh and this has taken me over 10 mins 2 get this far so lets add easily distracted to the list too :D.... I want so much out of life but feel I'll never achieve it. It's not that the fact that I've given up on things, it's the fact that on a few things, I'm my own worst enemy. I know I can have the life I want and I want it so bad.... I want to get my CNA and be a nurse someday. I want to have children and meet the person of my dreams.... I want a life where I don't feel so alone in a big huge crowd.
There are things that I know I have not listed and will bring up in other posts in the future... that I can assure you :D Thank you to all who have read this and I haven't lost nor scared off yet cause this is only the beginning....
